Friday, July 20, 2012

Motherhood

Man I have not posted in forever! Either because I am taking care of my little turd or attempting to sleep! And sorry there are no pics they are all on matts computer and he took it to school. Porter is getting so big so fast! I'm going to be the first to admit that I do not quite enjoy for the newborn stage. Ya they are cute and small and everything but boy was Porter a HARD newborn. He was super colicky. He was either sleeping or crying. And not the cute baby cry but just screams of pain. I felt so bad for the little man. He just wanted to be held constantly. And he was constipated like no other! Anywho things have gotten SO much better. He is on soy formula and acid reflux medication which I think helps a ton.
My favorite thing in the world is his little smile. He smiles and laughs and actually interacts! This morning matt fed him then woke me up to give him to me cause he had to go to school and I was not thrilled to have to get up so early but right when he handed porter to me I looked down at him and he just smiled behind his binky and I was no longer tired. I love this kid and I can't even remember life without him. Now I am just anxiously awaiting the day when he sleeps through the night. (I have a feeling i will be waiting for a LONG time).
So my baby will be 3 months on the 28th of this month and he is a ginormous 9 lbs 6 oz. (0% for weight haha). This kid is just tiny. The dr has been worried so he did all these tests on Porter and everything so far has come back normal. Porter is not the best eater so maybe that is why he wont gain weight I am just hoping there is nothing wrong with him and hes just a tiny mr. He is still in newborn clothing and diapers. I am looking forward to the day when I dont have to keep buying dang newborn diapers.
Motherhood has been amazing and I feel so blessed to be a mom but man it is hard work. It's like once you have a baby you have this instant connection and understanding with other moms. When I am up in the middle of the night with Porter I just think about all the other moms who are up at the same time and I dont feel so alone! I have so much more respect for moms then I ever have and I have so many wonderful examples to look up to.
So to sum it up here are the top 10 things I have learned as a mom this far:

1. Breastfeeding is so much harder than I thought and it's not for everyone. Do what's best for you.
2. Pampers are way better than huggies
3. It's ok to cry right along with your baby, it makes things easier. o and binkys are the best invention ever!
4. constipated babies are no fun
5. facebook is amazing for asking mom questions
6. i could never be a single mom, my husband is my saving grace
7. pumping sucks
8. cutting baby nails is so scary
9. Baby smiles make everything ok
10. You can function on 3 hrs of sleep

Friday, May 4, 2012

Porters Birth Story

Yes, Im alive and well! And even though I am not due for another 2 weeks I have a sweet baby boy in my arms! I can't even believe I have a baby! So crazy and so amazing! So here's how it went down...

Matt and I went on a baby-moon on April 25th to a hot springs resort a couple hours away. I remember thinking "wow, soon we are going to be parents and this is going to be our last outing alone together." Boy was I right. We got home thursday afternoon and were busy getting ready for matt's family to visit for the weekend. I started having some cramps and just assumed they were braxton hicks. They became more painful as the night went on but I told myself there is no way I am in labor, he's not due for another 3 weeks! Friday I called into work and said I was not coming in cause I was up all night in pain. Friday we ran some errands and I tried to be a good sport since matt's family was here. Friday night same thing, but the cramps got worse. I called the birth center and they basically said that if I was in labor it's best to labor at home as long as possible. I still didn't think I was in labor. The contractions were all over the place and not consistent. Anyways come saturday I was in PAIN!! So at 5 pm we decided we would go in and just check to see if I was even dilated. I told myself to not get my hopes up but I said if I was only dilated to a 1 I was going to murder someone.

So the nurse put monitors on me and checked and said I was dilated to a ...... 5!!! Yes a 5!! I was in shock! I was halfway there! The rest went so fast it almost seems like a blur. I called my mom and told her they were admitting me! She freaked out and booked a flight for the next morning! They admitted me to my room and asked if I wanted an epidural. Duh, that wasn't even a question! I was super nervous for the epidural because I am not a fan of needles but it was probably the best part of the whole thing! After that I figured I would just sleep for a couple hours and relax but no. The dr. came in and broke my water and checked me and I was at an 8! My epidural was not quite working on my left side so I asked if I could get more meds cause the contractions were starting to get painful again. The nurse said yes but Ill just have the dr. check you one more time before we give you more. The dr. came in and checked me and instantly said okay you need to push! WHAT!?! I started freaking out! This was really happening! So before I knew it I was pushing and pushing and pushing and those 20 minutes were harder than I had ever imagined. The dr. had to use a vacuum because baby was not very happy so I pushed one last time and poof! A sweet baby boy started crying! It was so surreal and amazing I can't quite describe it. I looked at Matt and we both had tears in our eyes.

Our sweet baby boy weighed 5 lbs. 15 oz and was 19 inches long. Even though he was so tiny he did a doozy on my cha cha but I'll stop there! He has big hands and feet but the rest of him is so tiny. For being 3 weeks early he was as healthy as could be and I could not be more grateful! I just need to fatten him up so he fits into his newborn clothes!!!

We had lots of family and friends come to visit and we feel so loved. My mom got in the next morning and has been with me all week. She has been a life saver and I'm gonna die when she leaves! Thank goodness for moms right!? This little guy has turned my whole world around. Its a big adjustment, harder than I thought but more amazing than I could have ever imagined. Right now I feel like the milk cow but once we get that down we will be set. I love my little boy.






Sunday, March 18, 2012

Another catch up......

Well I find myself playing catch up again! I am 31 weeks and I feel like time has flown by! Im excited for the little boy who keeps kicking me to come into this world but at the same time Im not sure I am quite ready......I will never feel 100% ready! I had an amazing baby shower in Montana and in Utah and I got spoiled!!! The baby room is almost done so I will post pictures eventually. Here are some facts lately:
1. my belly is measuring small for 31 weeks but the dr said I have gained enough weight that she is not worried.....now this does not make me feel good. Im glad that everywhere is getting big EXCEPT for my belly! go figure!
2. I feel like I have chubby little boy hands due to all the swelling.
3. It is amazing to see my belly moving from the outside. So cool! you gotta try it.
4. At this moment I am more excited to be done with work than I am to have a baby......thats how bad I hate work!
5. I am enjoying my big (well bigger) boobs....but the big belly gets in the way so its a win, loose situation :)
6. I eat every 5 minutes and I eat what I want cause if Im gonna get fat Im gonna get fat eating what I want!!
7. I think we have decided on the name Porter David Snarr. His middle name was going to be Matthew but then Matt realized his initials would be PMS. Good catch Matt. So its David after my wonderful dad.
8. Is is weird that I am totally worried about how my dog is gonna take to the new baby? Ha ha I know I'm a crazy dog lady but she's my first child.
Here are some pics from our trip to utah!
my mommy and sister. I love them.

EDH friends

Spanish fork ladies!!

My grandma at her bday dinner

i love my aimers

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Freezing my buns....

It is currently -9 degrees in Billings. I do not think I have ever felt such cold in my life. I took oakley out to play and by the end she had icicles on her whiskers and I had them in my nose. And they do not plow the roads here which is bad news for someone who is not very good at driving in the snow! I look forward to the day when we will be outta here! Until then I will have a good attitude.
             I have been busy with work and working on the babies room! My wonderful friend Jocey has volunteered (or I might have volunteered her) to make my baby bedding and I can't wait to see the finished product! I am 23 weeks and it feels like time has flown by! I can't wait to meet the little guy. We have a couple names picked out but I wanted peoples opinion on them so please cast your vote!!

1. Hudson
2. Porter
3. Liam
4. Graham
5. Owen

I love them all so his name might just have to be hudson porter liam graham owen snarr. Hope everyone is well!!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Baby Baby

I have decided I am just not cut out for this blogging thing. I am SO bad at it! So here's the latest. We spent christmas in California with my family and it was so much fun lets just say I cried at the airport cause I did NOT want to go back to Montana haha. I blame it on pregnancy hormones! While in California we went to San Francisco for a couple days to shop and see the grinch play! My wonderful and creative mother came prepared with homeless kits to give to the homeless we saw on the street. Isn't she just amazing!? haha At first we were a little embarrassed to give them this kit of stuff when they asked for money but they were so grateful for what we gave them. I hope to be like my mom when I am a mom because she amazes me everyday.       
              I am 22 weeks now and I feel really good other than my hips killing! I have bad hips like my mom i guess. We had our ultrasound and the baby is nice and healthy and a BOY! Surprise surprise! The Snarr curse....I mean tradition lives on haha. We are excited fort this little boy! Sometimes I get a little overwhelmed thinking of being a mother. Does anyone get like that? Its such a HUGE responsibility and I feel like I still need my mom so how can I be a mom? I am sure we all feel inadequate at some point right? Anyways thats all thats happening right now besides work for me and school for matt. Matt is done with school at the end of the summer then he starts rotations and we are out of Billings! YAHOO! I am still expecting lots of visitors when the babe comes :)!

                         



                              
                                              Baby with his legs over his head. looks comfy.....
3D image....a little alien still

The girls

I love my friends.

                                                                        San Fran

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Hi World

So I have been horrible at blogging. Again many things have been going on since my last post!
1- We were bags of jelly bellys for halloween. See pictures below! Just call me cheap.
2- We went to Mt. Rushmore for a mini vacation and it was lot's of fun! I can cross something off my list!
3- It is currently 7 degrees outside in Billings. I am on house arrest til spring. brrrrrrrrr....
4- My brother got home from his mission to Japan and I got to go home to california to see him! It is so good to have him back and he was such a good missionary!
5- Yes we are having a BABY!! I am due May 18th and can not be more excited/nervous/overwhelmed/anxious/blessed! I have been feeling ok besides just being tired constantly and throwing up a couple times a week. I am not quite sure if I am ready for such a big calling in life but I guess I have no choice at this point!! I will be needing lot's of advice and tips from all you great mommies out there!!

                                                               my little gummy bear!


                                                                    Mt Rushmore


Welcome home parker!!


                                                                 Bags of Jelly Bellys

Saturday, August 20, 2011

Quicky......

I knew I would catch your attention with the heading....perverts. I just wanted to give you a quick recap and I promise I will write a good post soon!
1. job is getting better but its still just a job
2. Matt has had a week off of school and its been amazing! I am sad to see it start again.
3.still dont have many friends and I am weirdly ok with it....i am becoming a hermit i think
4. My calling in church is RS chorister. Score.
5. My brother gets home from his mission to Japan on 11.11.11. How cool right!?
6. Anniversary is on Monday. 3 years have flown by!
7. I miss the familiarity of Utah and all my wonderful friends still.
8. I love TV more than ever
9. Matt turned 27 yesterday and said his sperm are dying and that he needs a child. I dont believe him.

Stories to come soon!